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Locking my face in his stare, he gestures exuberant kisses with his mouth towards me as he passes. An immediate sensation of disgust and unease flushes through me. What might have seemed as a brief flirt to the man on the bicycle, disturbs my emotions for the whole evening. I cannot brush off his lewd gesturing that creeps over my skin, leaving stains like dried grease.
This is not the first time that I felt molested on the street…
Being young comes with an admirable recklessness and an emotional intensity that adulthood cannot compare with. But when we are young, we are also blinded by emotion and deaf to reason. I keep browsing through my memories, with my attention especially drawn towards life choices which I now cannot identify with anymore. To ensure that my future self will not repeat these past mistakes, I have created this list of important lessons my younger self has taught me…
“Usually, I can detect scams very reliably, yet, I did not catch this one. I felt helpless, lost, and unable to think or act. This was a panic attack, and I knew it was.”
Read more about my first-hand experience with a big money scam to find out about its climactic end.
Rushing from one event to another, chasing deadline after deadline, I find myself enslaved to time, and I am noticing the side-effects rather pronouncedly. This is the first moment in three days that I am properly calming down, taking time for myself, without the next appointment on my schedule haunting me.
We have all seen the ugly face of peer pressure before. Peer pressure is so powerful that it can make us ditch our principles, values, and habits, only because we want to belong. Facing it is not easy, but together we can do it!
Even though a part of me knew that I am suffering from mild anorexia, the other part of me did not want to acknowledge this. I refused to label myself as anorexic because giv.ing it a name made it concrete. There is a fair amount of inner resistance to be fought before you are ready to come to terms with the type of problem you seemingly meant to have as according to the general belief. Acknowledging and accepting the full extend of such problems is really not that easy as I can confirm.
I am guessing that you expect a Fresher to be careless, reckless, and inexperienced. You probably associate a Fresher with a young adult who is celebrating their freedom and rite of passage by drinking extensively and partying harder than studying. I do not intend to confirm this stereotype. Instead, I want to challenge this image of the typical life as first year student.